221.5 again today. Which is very cool that I'm still on that number. Thought it would bounce back up really quickly. Stand by for that possibility tomorrow. But it's still giving me hope that this is all doable. As I'm writing this I've got one eye on The Bachelor Tells All and I'm wondering what's up with these women. They are all beautiful - young - capable - and very very thin. There is miles of footage of all of them running around in bikinis with not so much as a nickel full of cellulite anywhere. No lumps, no bumps, no rolls. No saddle bags, no muffin tops, no nothing. And yet, they have humiliated themselves by signing up for a show on which they know they will be dating the same guy as 25 other women. How could they be that beautiful and thin and still have such low esteem or be so desparate for a date? My point here is that it's not just weight that makes women doubt themselves. Why can't we look in the mirror and be happy with what we see? Why do we need to focus on what we think is wrong or lacking? Not enough or too much? We hate our hair, our mouths, our eyes, our everything. Maybe the women on the bachelor hate what they see in the mirror, too. Maybe along with eating right and exercising, I need to be a little bit nicer to my reflection.