219. Again. This number really really likes me. But I'm ok - I think because I feel so good because of what I'm puting (and not putting) in my body. And I'm thinking tomorrow is the day the number will change. So stand by for that announcement. I'll need some sort of ceremony to bid adieu to that rotten number.
Loved watching the oscars last night. I watch for the dresses. Thing that struck me last night as so odd is that all of the women needed help walking up or down the stairs on the set - so why wear those ridiculously high heels and I know why - it's so they look taller which makes them look thinner. And there sure were a whole lot of thin women there. Especially director James Cameron's wife. She looked ill - like her little skinny collar bones would snap if a strong breeze came up. And she looked awfully unhappy. The other woman who I can't stop thinking about is the young woman who was up for best acress - she starred in the movie Precious. Her name is Gabby Sidebe - or something like that. And she is obese. I noticed that they had to bring a special chair for her to sit in at the end of the row. And she was the only one in the room with a special oversized seat. I've heard her interviewed by Oprah and she beleives that she is completely at peace with her size. But I don't understand how she could be at peace with it/ She will lose years off her life by having her organs so choked by mounds and mounds of fat. Will she be able to have a baby? Not sure. How can she even be comfortable - think of all of the places like cars and restaurant booths where we have to squeeze in. How can she? I know how easy it is to get that heavy. It's just one pound at a time over and over again. And before you know it you look in the mirror and there you are - all of you.  She's giving up so many wonderful things to stay that big. All the activites that she is missing out on - for what? to eat more? Something must have happened to her somewhere in the past to cause her to feel that she needs this protective suit of fat to go forward in life. I've figured out why I was wearing a fat suit - I don't think I would be this successful in losing it if I hadn't figured it out. Gabby can keep smiling her beautiful smile, but I for one do not believe her.