This super accelerated program of veggies, fruits, protein water and exercise is definitely working. 203 this morning. 64 pounds gone! 38 tto go! 4 to ONEderland. I'm going to need a really good reward when I get to 199!
Did you watch Jillian last night on her new show? She takes over a family for a week in an effort to get them started on their own journey toward health. And of course, I cried. A lot. The parents were obese, the daughter had had bypass surgery and the son was overweight. They all worked on losing weight before the daughter's wedding and were successful. But the hardest part was hearing them talk about their other son who died at a month old after a long stay in the hospital on a ventilator. That was over 20 years ago and the fact that they weren't able to talk about it was keeping them from enjoying thier lives. Jillian got them to talk about it - (more crying on my part) and it opened a flood of emotions for them and way to finally talk. Great family - great story.  Makes me wonder about other heavy people, myself included, and what is it that we are holding on to that makes us eat to insulate us from the pain? I know for me it was and is the relationship - or lack there of - that I had with my Dad. The more time I spend forgiving him - and that is definitely an inch by inch process - the better I feel about myself. The better I feel about myself - the more positive my relationship is with food.  I try to spend a few minutes every day actively forgiving him.  I believe that forgiveness is at the core of weight loss. Forgiveness of others, forgiveness of ourselves. Forgiveness of past transgressions and current slipups.

Went out in my rowing shell this monring - did about three miles. I'm going a little further every day, building up my strength. And it's only June 2! I should be doing great lengths by the end of August or September.