Walked two miles this morning - chugged along at a pretty good speed. Had fruit, whole grain carb, WATER, club soda, apple, peanut butter and a lo cal fudgsicle. Then went out in the kayak for a long spin. Good day. Food is still calling to me but somewhat diminished today. Gorgeous blue sky, puffy white clouds. Bit of a breeze. Not much on the work agenda today so read a book - won't win any literary awards but ranks up there as a pretty good beach read.
Evenings have been harder for me recently. I think I need a cut off hour. AFter seven - no  more food. I HATE all these rules but I need them. I need to come up with a better name for them than rules. Parameters? Suggestions? Guidelines?
Geneen Roth (Women Food and God) has a piece of chocolate every day. She maintains that you can not cut out those things that you love. You need to be present and be aware that you are eating your favorite thing so that you don't have to eat the whole bag. Or box. Or gallon. So she stops her whole day and focuses on that one small square of chocolate. I can't begin to list the bags and boxes and bars of things that I have eaten mindlessly - just eaten them all up to fill me up. And of course it never worked. So to try and relearn eating - to be present within my eating so that I am aware of what I'm eating and enjoying - Remembering!!!! - what I'm eating so that I don't have to eat so much of it. And fill myself with other things. Like reading a good book, and being active, and laughing with my friends and family, and loving my family and creating my crafts and being awake, aware and alive within my own life.